Chapter 133 – The Moon Wolf

“You’re still not going to hold her? It’s been 3 months, bro”, Nathan said but I shook my head. “I love your daughter, no doubt but I can’t bring myself to pick her up”, I told him and he nodded in understanding.

Lyla went into labor after I told them to leave the room and when I was busy putting things into place to transfer Lola’s body to our room, she gave birth to her daughter.

When I went to see her, she named her Lola which made me feel like I’d be accepting that she’s no more if I ever held the baby. The only Lola I want to hold is my mate and I wouldn’t go against what I stand for.

I explained to Nathan and he understood why I wouldn’t pick up his child. I wouldn’t have gotten through those 3 months without him and I was definitely grateful to him.

“What are you boys doing standing around? The ceremony is in 4 hours and you’re not getting ready yet?” Lyla said as she came into view, her hand on her waist.

“We’re guys, we don’t need 4 hours to get ready”, Nathan replied to her as he placed a quick kiss on her lips to which she smiled.

“Adrian here needs to sleep. He has been in the pack house since yesterday and I’m sure he didn’t sleep a wink. We don’t want you falling asleep on us when we start the ceremony”, she said and I rolled my eyes.

“Oh please, Lyla. I’ve been through worse and I’m still standing”. It was her turn to roll her eyes at me. “Just because you’ve been through worse doesn’t mean you have to go through this too”, she said.

“You can go home now to rest while we finish up here. You should also check up on her, it’s her 19th birthday after all”, she said, her voice breaking towards the end and I nodded.

“Yeah, yeah, I should”, I said as I patted Nathan on his shoulder, “I’ll be back before you know it”. With that I left the pack house.

I had almost gotten home when Daxon started getting restless and our bond began to vibrate with more life than it did before.

“Are you thinking what I’m thinking?” I asked him and he hummed in agreement. I picked up pace and ran the rest of the way to our home.

I took a deep breath before I opened the door to the house. It has never been the same since I lost her and mom. I barely stayed in the house during the day and at night, I stay up watching her for any sign of life.

The air in the house felt different when I opened the door, but I couldn’t quite place my fingers on what was different.

I made my way to our room and gently pried the door open. My heart almost stopped when I couldn’t find her body. I opened the door fully and burst into the room frantically searching for her.

I opened the bathroom door, almost tearing it off its hinge but it was empty. My heart started beating erratically, the sound of my heartbeat tuning out everything else.

Where could she have gone? Damon is dead, who could have taken her while I was away? What if I lost her forever? What if……?

“Adrian. Are you okay?” The angelic voice that I had waited to hear for three months reached my ears. “Lo….. Lola?” I stuttered and blinked severally to be sure that I wasn’t in a dream and she was really in front of me.

“I haven’t been transported into an alternate universe, right?” I asked and she laughed, the soft sound bringing a smile to my face.

“Of course not, dummy”, she tapped the bridge of my nose with her index finger and electricity zapped through me at the contact.

“Yup, definitely our mate”, Daxon said happily in my head. I pulled her into a hug and sobbed into her shoulder, startling both of us.

“I thought I lost you forever. I thought I was being delusional and you were not going to come back to me. I’m so sorry I wasn’t able to protect you from everything. I….. I’m….. I really……”, my rambling was cut short when she placed a chaste kiss on my lips.

“None of what happened was your fault, Adrian. No matter the outcome, I already knew how it was going to end”, she said and I looked at her in confusion.

“What does that even mean, baby? I should have protected you, I promised to”, I tried to argue but she shook her head.

“No, Adrian”.

“Selene had already told me that I have to give my life to save all of the pack wolves”.

Lola’s POV

The look on his face when he took in what I said broke me but I had to clear the air, to make him stop blaming himself and make me free from the guilt of keeping such away from him.

“You purposely have your life up because it was all part of the big plan?” He asked and I nodded, hoping that he would understand why I had to do that.

“So when you asked me to allow our wolves to mate, you already knew what you were doing?” He asked and I nodded my head.

“When you went away with Fay and Serena to the clinic, you already knew what you were going to do?” I nodded my head again.

“Why?” That one sentence carried so much pain that I could feel my heart breaking again.

“It was to save all of us, Adrian. I was chosen for that purpose. I couldn’t bear losing all of you just to save myself, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself. I’m so sorry, Adrian, I’m so sorry”, I cried as I spoke.

He pulled back from me and stood up, tears streaming down his face. “You could have told me, Lola”, he said with evident hurt on his face and in his voice.

“But….”, I tried to speak but he held up his finger in the universal “not a word” signal, so I kept quiet.

“We were supposed to share everything with each other. I thought you were just worried because of the responsibility on you. I tried everything to make you feel better, I did everything to show you that I was on your side, I made sure you knew you could trust me and what? You kept such a huge amount of information from me?” Tears streamed down my face as he spoke because all he said was correct.

“We’re making him cry”, Jasmine whimpered sadly in my head. Yes, Jasmine came back. Apparently, she was sleeping while I was in the void. What we did with Fay was very powerful since only the moon goddess was supposed to interfere with the affairs of mates and their bonds. I was lucky I survived it at all.

“It was so hard to live with myself. It was so hard to wait, hoping and praying that you’ll come back to me. All I had was that faint vibration in our bond, Lola”, he screamed and moved away from me.

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